Thursday, October 6, 2011

I gotta give this up

I gotta give this up.

In my FAQ it says: Are you going to stop? I’ve been hoping I would just stop some day but it hasn’t happened yet. I’ve thought about stopping on and off for the past year. And today I was thinking and coming to the conclusion that this may be some weird obsessive-compulsive thing I’ve got going on. I have written about every single time River and I have had sex since January 2009. We fuck and it just rattles around in my head and wants to spill out in gorgeous sex scenes that give some insight into what things are like on my side of the action. Hopefully I’ll be ok leaving it all there in my head.

This has been a fun blog. I’ve really enjoyed doing the writing. A lot more than I thought I would. I've worn out many words. I’ve learned a lot about myself. Quite often River and I ended up discussing something that originally surfaced here, whether she knew it or not. And often talking with River would be even better than sex with River. I also learned about writing. I call myself a writer now. How strange.

I’ve enjoyed giving a full frontal view of the sex life of a monogamous hetero couple with kids. Maybe I've inspired people. Maybe I've upset people. Maybe it seems like I’ve created a fictional Reed and River, but I haven’t. We’re real people. We have real sex. Everything I’ve written is true. The quotes are actual quotes. Our relationship is as good as I hope you think it is. We were made for each other, and often marvel at how we ended up together against some pretty long odds.

If I'm guilty of anything, it is not telling the whole truth. I've glossed over many things including my own emotional and physical issues. But this is a blog about fucking, and I tried to stay true to that. Many times I thought I should start another blog, Reed and River are Not Fucking. But it wouldn't be something I'd want a historical record of. I revisit things on this blog periodically. I'm my biggest fan.

I’ve met a few people on the other side of the ether who I’d like to call friends. And I’ve made one serious real-life friend doing this blog. I’ve told her a couple times that maybe the reason I did this blog in the first place was to meet her. It seems entirely possible. Even likely. I would be sad to stop blogging without having fulfilled that (unintentional?) goal.

I’m proud of this blog and will keep it online, probably even filling in the gap from 2009 to 2010 which I’ve written but haven’t posted. My email address will remain viable. Feel free to use it.

I’m proud that River is my sweetie, and that I’m her sweetie.

I thank everybody who left comments. Here are a few of my favorites:

And finally, I’m always talking about how hot River is. Her sporty body. Her compact tits. Her cute face. She’s consented for me to post this, her perfect ass:


I tell River about the last line of this post: “I feel strangely free.”

7 comments

Anisa, proud to be your real-life friend said...

I love you both. I'll miss reading Reed.

I'll have to tell you what I think of River's ass once I stop crying so damn hard and can open my eyes to see it more clearly.

TFBMF

Natasha said...

You gotta do what you gotta do. I'm sorry to see you stop, but I understand. And River's ass is pretty perfect. Give her a high five from me for that. You'll still hang around and comment, though, right? : )

Jack said...

Your blog has been great to read and enjoy the honesty you've written about having sex no matter what. BTW I have to agree..River NICE ASS!

liza bennett said...

I have enjoyed your blog so much. Your writing is fantastic. It always gave me a thrill to open my reader and see a new post. Thank you for sharing yourself and River.

Reed said...

Jack and Liza, when I get comments like that it's all mutual, believe me. Thank you both.

Margot said...

I'm ridiculously flattered to be one of your favorite comments. I've really enjoyed your writing and I wish you all the best in your endeavors to come!! If you're still expounding somewhere out there on the internet, I want to read it.

Also, River's ass is spectacular.

~AP said...

I will simply say "Thank you and good luck". You were one of the inspirations for my writing, and will continue to be such.

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